Don’t look at me like with your blank, white face staring
back at me. I know you exist. I know my role – I’m supposed to show up
occasionally and write on you. Regularly,
you say? Regularly show up and write
on you? I’m sorry to break this to you, but it won’t happen for a while.
What…you feel abandoned and naked? Listen, you and I need to
come to an agreement. There will be times when life feels demanding enough and
I don’t need a blog chasing me with guilt or pressure to write a few words on
your screen.
Whether you realize it or not, I have some other writing to
do which, at the moment, is taking all of the measly energy I have. What’s
that? You’re wondering if I’m still writing that silly fiction stuff? Yes…and no. Not at the moment, is the correct
answer. I’ve put it aside and will finish it next year as my final thesis while
I take a year to write some creative non-fiction. A not-so-pleasant family
story. Stay tuned. In the meantime, I want you to know, blog, that there is a
life beyond work and writing. Yup. Sometimes I like to go out and play with my
friends – like our trip into Chicago last weekend to see a play in a small,
200-seat theatre where the performers
were close enough to allow us to read their nuanced expressions and the looks
in their eyes.
I tried to block all
writing from my mind and enjoy a carefree dinner before the show in a great
little pub located in an old Brownstone (with TWO fireplaces). I planned to forget
about you and words and my writing project and just relax, enjoying an autumn
evening in the city. But it’s hard to run away from writing tasks and thoughts
about my project when the play turns out to be about….books. We saw an adaption
of Jane Austen’s Northanger Abbey which
tells the story of a young girl whose passion for novels causes her to look at
the events in her life with an unrealistic dramatic flair. A play based on a
book telling the story of an avid reader of books. Just what I’d prescribe to
someone looking to get their mind off words.
So here’s my meager attempt at keeping you happy – this tiny
little post. In the future, let’s be clear that this is how it’ll be. Sometimes
I’ll show up and write you a little post. Sometimes I won’t. Just don’t worry
about me when I’m gone. I’m out living life, working on projects, enjoying
family and friends or just wondering around my neighborhood clearing my head. And
remember, I’m the creator and you’re the created.
Until next time,
2 comments:
How sweet...your blog misses you, too...but totally understands, I'm sure :-)
:)
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