Healthy and active gym member
New seizure medication
Severe muscle pain
ER, MRI, CAT scan, x-rays
Ice pack hidden under scarves at work
Chiropractor, primary care physician, neurologist
Useless over-the-counter meds and muscle relaxers
Work at 8 a.m. sharp
Numbness in arms and legs, vertigo, jackhammer tapping in ears
Unable to hold books without limbs going numb
Writing packet due to graduate mentor
Heating pads hidden under scarves at work
Pain in sitting; pain in lying down
Reruns of Law and Order while
standing until 1 a.m.
EMG, blood tests
Scary blood test results
Tested positive for scleroderma (elephantitis, The Elephant Man disease. Like
the movie, like the play)
Reading due for grad program
Work at 8:00 a.m.
Grateful for legs that move pain-free
during a walk
Scared and sleepless
Reruns of Law and Order
Pain and stress continue
Son arrives home from overseas
Oxycotin please? Nope.
Change seizure medication
Cancel gym membership for the first time in 20 years.
A second positive test for schleroderma, The Elephant Man disease
Healthy eyes absorbing snow covered trees outside
Healthy ears to absorb music
Kind friends joining me in the ER
And the sound of sons laughter during a visit
Legs that walk pain-free
A sweet, concerned husband
A meal cooked by a thoughtful neighbor
The prayers of many, near and far
Heating pads tied to head and neck
Four more MRIs
Walk in the snow like a slow old woman
Magnesium, epsom salts, vitamin B, special diet
More Law and Order re-runs
Work at 8 a.m.
Christmas shopping in pain
Generous co-workers donate vacation time
Christmas in bed
Disheartened, worried, scared, distracted
Stranger in the mirror
Copyedits due for graduate thesis
Unable to sit, even in doctor’s office
Third test for Schleroderma. Negative!
Hopeful words from the rheumatologist: “Someday you’ll slowly walk out of
Intermittent Family Medical Leave from work.
Three steps forward, two and a half steps back
Toxic seizure med clearing my system
Muscles returning to normal
Finish graduate thesis
A new chiropractor. Occupational therapy. Physical therapy.
Three steps forward, two steps back
Pain-free sitting, standing, lying down
Three steps forward, one step back
The end in sight